"I Do Not Seek To Do My Own Will"

I hope to put part three of the worship series up on Tuesday, but I felt like this was worth the interruption.

Last night God showed me a huge flaw in the way I think and function on a day to day basis; needless to say it was a bit devastating in a good humbling sanctifying way. I am currently reading through John and last night I came to John 5:30 where Jesus says, "I do not seek My own will, but the will of Him who sent me." As I read this, the Holy Spirit lovingly convicted me and I asked myself this question; how often could I say a similar thing about myself? How often could I say, "I do not seek my own will, but the will of Him who...made me, saved me, loves me, is for me, the list could go on and on. The truth is that the little decisions I make day to day are usually governed by what I feel like doing. As I thought about this more and more I began to see the horror in it. The bible says that my heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked. Most of the time when the Bible talks about the heart it is referring to what is felt, thought, and wanted. So when I am governed by what I feel, the result will be evil because my heart is evil. Now will this always look like evil? probably not, more than likely the evil will come from my motives and desires; but it will be evil none the less. Now Jesus who was perfect sought only to do the will of God alone, so what in the world am I doing? This drove me to my knees as I repented and asked for strength to stop being governed by what I feel and start being governed by the will of God. When I do this I can have complete assurance that I am doing what is right and glorifying to God.

As followers of Christ we are called to renounce ourselves and our wills and submit to God and His will. Christian, are you still being governed by what you want to do, or are you asking God in every situation big and small, "Lord, what would you have me do?"

In light of our sin and continued rebellion against God and His will, what can we say but hallelujah for the cross and the blood of Christ which made a way for us to be forgiven, freed, and strengthened to seek His will instead of ours.

For the glory of God

Seth